Beliefs

I hate harmful beliefs.

I spend time around so many people with the most harmful beliefs, and I just can't stand it.
I feel terrible hearing them all the time, understanding how harmful those beliefs can be, and it being the social norm.

But whats worse, I hate my harmful beliefs.
For the most part I think I'm doing pretty good.
But sometimes I find myself face to face with another harmful belief, one that I have, and one that I don't know what to do with.
Those times are hard.

As much as I know I want to believe myself to be an equal, sometimes I still don't.
As much as I know I don't want to give away my individual power, sometimes I still do.
As much as I know I don't want to use tactic of control, sometimes I still try.

Those times are scary for me.
Scary because being so unhealthy has been really harmful to me in the past.
But this fear isn't helping.