Cheating

Sometimes I break the rules.

There are times that I choose to eat the things that I know I shouldn't.

I do so because I want to feel normal.

Because whatever consequences come from eating what I'm allergic to seem to be small in comparison to how I feel when I can't eat that stuff.

So I choose to eat the chocolate bar, or the captain crunch - because then it's like I'm normal.

Then the reactions come and I feel sick. Sometimes I just deal with it. Other times I feel shameful for not taking care of my body, or just generally upset that I can't  eat "normally" without consequences.